It always comes back to ya.

My day today already begun kind of shit like.
I've been ill for the past 3 days. I can't quite eat nor drink much. And now to help, its getting a little hard to breathe. I do refuse to go to the hospital unless i find that is really necessary. Why? I just despite the idea of sitting in a hospital wait for them to see you, and they'll say the same shit as usual ... "Take Advil" -.-"

Anyways. My ex (the great love of my life) decides to come back to haunt me. But im not caring much. I mean, yes i still have feelings for her, and i doubt that shall ever go away. But right now, im with and amazing person who i happened to fall in love with and yeah, long story short. My ex comes back to tell me she misses me and she wants me back in her life, putting the whole bullshit aside.

Okay, i do accept being her friend again i guess. But it wont last long because i cant show no emotions to her other than coldness, and bluntness. Simply because, shes a mindfucker.

She keeps complaining to me about her "Boyfriend" who she claims it isnt anymore, they are just seeing each other. Does that even make sense? I don't know, shes crazy. But hey i dont care, in a mean way i kind of think she deserves to be treated like shit by him. After everything shes done to me, and to him... Yeah, you deserve it.

I miss my girlfriend. I havent seen her in a couple of days, and we barely even talk anymore. I can't quite tell if its because she is in trouble ( like she always is) or because shes just avoiding speaking to me, afraid that i will lash out at her for the stupid things she does.  I kind of told myself im not going to care anymore. If she wants to act stupid, im not going to be the one to stop her, because every time i do, we fight, and im the one who hurts. And if its for pain... I already have a lot to deal with.

I guess now i got to concentrate in... Finish cutting my hair & Getting well.
Now for the weekend... I guess im spending home seen as im ill :/