Just another pointless night.

I have a tendency of getting angry for the tiniest reasons. And i don't know. As usual a trillion thoughts are going to my head and i don't know what to say. Im just kind of sick of people you know? Every one thinks im cool, and wants to hang out and all that shit, but im always like... i don't know i guess i like to be left alone?

My girl is probably at a party right now getting fucked up, which shell probably get grounded again and i wont be able to see her. Well, not much of a surprise /: I guess she doesn't understand that, i dont care if she drinks or not, if she smokes or not, i just dont want her in trouble... I admit, its because im afraid of losing her. And to be honest... these days its what scares me the most. Even tho i dont act like it.

I act like i don't give a shit, which makes me seem like im controlling her. But no, i would never, cause i sure as hell wouldnt like her doing that to me. But i guess i just care too much for her, am just afraid of admitting it. Well considering what went through with my ex, anyone would.


I was suppose to go chill at a hotel tonight with some friends, but my mum as usual totally fucked that up.
Anyways, i guess im going to bed.

I totally miss my girl /: <3